I've been broken down so many times in my life & I always had the strength to carry on,to start again once more,but lately,I've been broken like never before twice in less than 2 weeks.
The 1st time I've been hit strongly,the 2nd deeperly & strongerly.
I feel like I have now a piece of ice in my chest,not a heart anymore.I don't think I will be able to trust someone else in the next days of my life,I believe I won't be able to love anybody,but my family &,most of all,I promise my eternal loyalty to my angelic mummy,who suffers even more than me & like never before for what happened recently in my life.
I've been loyal,onest,faithful & good like with nobody else & those people who only took from me don't even realize the evil ways they treat me with.
I can't even hate them,because,also hate presupposes a feeling toward other ones.But they just don't even deserve hate.For them
I JUST FEEL NOTHING.
I FEEL COLD LIKE ICE.
I WILL BE LIKE ICE.
I AM ICE RIGHT NOW.
& I promise myself & to my adored angel that I'll be anything I can be & more.